05/08 - not very good at blogging or keeping up with my hobbies. feels like i'm disappointing someone other than myself, but i'm not entirely sure who. God, maybe. one day my wings will spread and i will be a better, brighter person.
Oxy Cotton - Lil Wyte
Shoot It With Film - "film soup" tutorial
04/03 - sorry for sadposting (it will happen again)
no real updates other than being trapped in my own mind, body, soul, and cycle of apartment-to-work-and-back-again. bought some new books to keep me company. i think i'm doing a bit better these past couple of weeks when it comes to eating, aside from a few binge days that made me feel like human garbage.
Conduit - Russian Circles
Stretch Boot Covers Tutorial - tutorial by Vicious Cosplay
03/21 - the passage of time is slowly eroding at my sense of well-being. i need more (better) sleep
I Used To Hate Cell Phones But Now I Hate Car Accidents - Norma Jean
FilmCow Royalty Free Sound Effects - over 4,000 sound effects for royalty free use by FilmCow
29/02 - most of my social interactions are negative or non-existant. incredibly cringey drunk messages i can never remember because i'm too shy to form a friendship without introducing drugs into the mix. always saying the wrong thing, saying something stupid, can't give myself a break. what will i ever accomplish by dwelling on the past?
i'll be ok. i always find a way in the end.
The Dirge - Japanther
Дрожжевые пирожки с картошкой (в духовке) - Russian pirozhki recipe
07/02 - planned a really nice trip in July. starting to slowly feel like i deserve nice things. unsure if how i'm feeling right now is legimate, or the onset of mania. my mind is buzzing with a thousand things i want to do, with hobbies and sports i want to get back into. maybe things will be ok after all.
Wheat Kings - The Tragically Hip
Project Gutenberg's Demonology and Devil-lore by Moncure Daniel Conway - free ebook on Demonology
28/01 - slipped up a bit, slacking in most areas of my life. trying to get back on track with exercise (still hitting my step goals) and language learning. i have a tendency to shut down after work and watch videos of fat marmots getting bathed. post-work coma. doing fantastic lately on media consumption, so there's that.
i would do numbers on "Clean Tok" during my manic episodes.